I Love You -- Goodbye!
Dear Dr. Tracy,
An ex-beau came back into my life after we'd been apart about a year. The
relationship had been good, one of the best I've had on many levels. We shared
interests, we had fun, great sex and we were good friends. It ended when he
became scared that we were building a life together ,something he decided
he just wasn't ready to do.
When he came back he told me that he had grown a lot and felt ready to
build a life with me. He told me he loved me, the first time he'd told me
that, he told me what he loved about me, he told me that he'd never felt as
connected to anyone as he did to me and that he had missed me the time we
were apart. It took awhile for me to take all this in, but I liked the sound
of it, and the connection we had was so sweet that it didn't take too long
for me to open back up to him.
For eight weeks we had a great time. We went out, stayed in, cooked meals,
he met my parents, he told me he loved me, he told me how much he respected
me, I was having a great time thinking about the trip to Italy we were
planning for the Spring, then the other shoe fell.
He suddenly turned cold and withdrew and told me that while he loved me, he
just felt this brick wall around him that he could not get over (or would
not) and that was that. I asked him if he would like to work through this
fear with me rather than end the relationship and he said he would like to
work through it. He even cried on my shoulder, and it seemed like we'd had a
bit of a breakthrough. Then about a week later, he did it again. This time
he said he'd realized that getting close to someone was something that he
just couldn't do. He said there was this wall around his heart and he
realized that he just couldn't scale it.
By the way, I had never pushed him to marry me, move in with me, or even call
me every day. I had wanted a year of seasons to really get to know him and
see where we could go together.
I showed him the door and told him to have fun growing old with his wall.
I had little trouble ending the relationship because I want a partner who is
willing to evolve emotionally and mature enough to walk their talk, for
longer than a couple of months. I can't imagine how boring it would be to have
a life partner that wasn't willing to do that. I want someone who is as
brave as he asks me to be.
My question is: This guy meets the qualifications on your list, he's fun and
open when that wall is down and I am the first woman this guy has ever
professed his love to.
What did I do wrong? This is not the first relationship I've had where a
man confesses his love and then scares himself out of it. This is
unfortunately the third. Am I destined to start counting the weeks after a man
tells me he loves me, waiting for him to flee? I still feel open to men, but
it's mainly because I don't want to end up like this guy, afraid of the good
thing that could actually work out. Why do men scare themselves this way? If
he loves me why is he so afraid? This guy has lost most of his family and
okay, his pattern is to date a woman for approximately 8 months and then end
it suddenly. I just thought he really had grown as he said he has. How do
you spot this? I mean, I had several heart to hearts before I let him back
in, and I still didn't get there with this guy.
Dear Goodbye Girl,
If you thought this guy met "the qualifications on my list," you must have been reading that article with rose-colored glasses. It starts out, "First, Is Someone Commitment-minded?"
One thing to always remember about an ex-beau -- they are ex for a reason. Usually that reason doesn't go away. He was an ex because he couldn't commit. What makes you think he could change that easily? People don't change easily. If they did, there would be no business for therapists.
Just because a guy says he's changed doesn't mean he has. And just because a guy says he loves you doesn't mean you have to hand him your heart and soul on a platter. Make him prove he's changed and that he loves you by staying around -- a lot longer than the last time.
There are some guys who only love you if you don't love them back. He could be one. There are other guys who simply can't really make a commitment. He could be one of those too. Read "The Broken Popcorn Machine" in my Library for a better understanding of this.
First you tell me "his pattern is to date a woman for approximately 8 months and then end it suddenly." Then you ask "how do you spot this (commitment-phobia)?" Wake up! If you want a guy who stays around longer than a few months, look for one who has made lasting commitments before, not one who has a track record of short relationships and no lasting ones. The only way to stop having this experience with men is to choose healthier men, men with strong family ties, men with no walls, men who have loved and committed before.
He Likes Her Undies
Dear Dr. Tracy,
My husband likes to wear my underwear, and he likes to play with himself
alot sexually, can you tell me if this is normal. Sometimes it turns me
Dear Turned-Off Wife,
Your husband is not unique. There are many men out there wearing women's underwear. And most men "play with themselves." (Also, by the way, there are many women who like to wear men's underwear, and many who play with themselves.)
If those are the worst things you have to say about your husband, it's not so terrible. As long as he doesn't hurt you or himself, he's okay, just different. Of course if he's turning you off, you should find something he can do to turn you back on. The real potential problem here is that playing with oneself is a solitary pleasure which leaves one's mate out of the loop. Perhaps you could play with him instead and he could play with you.
So is this about underwear, or are you feeling left out?
If you need attention, speak up. Let your husband know exactly what your needs are. Give him a chance to make you happy. He doesn't sound that bad.
Wants To Be More Than Friends
Dear Dr. Tracy,
About a year and a half ago, I met this girl who came into my social
scene. Initially I wasn't attracted to her, but about 8-9 months ago we
started hanging out together instead of just as a group of friends. We
went to movies, rollerblading, biking, etc. Eventually thids lead to us
being together at least 5 nights of the week.
As I got to know her personality, I became more attracted to her and in
Aug. decided to ask her out. Her response was that she didn't want a
commitment and just wanted to remain friends. We still see each other
at least 5 times a week and are really friendly with each other (as in
touching, no kissing though). Once in a while I get the feeling from
her that she would like more out of the relationship, but she is also
very conservative. She wouldn't dream of asking someone to
dance, never mind asking someone out.
I find this relationship frustrating. I still would like to be more
than friends, but am not sure how to find out if she would want to
become more than friends. What should I do? I don't want to wait
Normally, when a woman says she "just wants to be friends," it's a polite way of edging out of a relationship she's decided not to pursue. In this case, though, she's happily seeing you five nights a week, so she doesn't want to get away from you. In fact, you already have more than just a casual friendship. Sometimes the best relationships develop out of strong friendships, but it takes time, and meanwhile, you're in a quandary.
The bad news and the good news for you is that even the most conservative woman knows how to give signals that she wants kisses and more. She'll let you know when she's ready, and when (and if) the circumstances are right, kisses and more will happen. Of course that could be a long time away, or never.
As I've said before many times, the best way for you to awaken whatever potential romantic interest she has for you is to start dating other women. So do that. Have fun and maybe a little romance with other women, while remaining friends with the conservative rollerblader. Let her see that other women think of you romantically, give her occasional hints that you'd rather be dating her, and eventually you'll know whether you'll always be "just friends" -- or not.
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