Stuck on Mr. Wrong
Dear Dr. Tracy,
where do I begin? My husband of 4 months, I suspect, is seeing other
women. Not that it surprises me, I've known him for 10 years and he's
had several girlfriends during that
time frame. We got engaged in November of '02 and the following spring,
I became pregnant with his child. 5 months into my pregnancy, after just
moving in with him, I found
out he was seeing 2 other women. One relationship ended shortly after I
confronted him, the other one dragged on (partially my fault) even after
she moved out of the area. It finally took me to hop on a plane, find
her house, and confront him in front of her before things truly ended.
he left with me and the baby that night and we got married last fall. i
thought that we had worked things out and that now he'd straighten up
and fly right. boy was i wrong.
now he's got a couple of girls calling the house at odd hours and he
gets defensive if i answer the phone and he's not home and i know it's
for him so why do i answer and i found some e-mails in our e-mail
account trash folder he sent replying to some personal ads he saw on the
internet. he's got his own e-mail and i hacked into it and found that
he's still seeing someone he dated before we got engaged.all of this has
just blown me away and i am at a total loss as to what to do.
i love him very much and despite all of what i've just said, we have a
good relationship and sex life (or so i thought). his dad and granddad
both have cheated so i don't know if he's conditioned to believe it's
okay or maybe he's just a womanizer in nice guy clothing.
we've tried to talk about things but he's not willing to go to
counseling and the last time we talked he said that he didn't want to be
married and that he wasn't ready for the responsibility of having
someone depend on you entirely. so, as hurt as i was by this, i
discussed with him looking into getting separated. that was over a month
ago - we're still in the same house, still doing things together as a
family and still having sex.
i've thought about having an open marriage (basically letting him run
around) but the thought of him being with someone else really eats away
at me. i have low self-esteem and a huge amount of stress from working 2
jobs, caring for a 1 1/2 year old and wondering what to do about my
ill-fated marriage. leaving is a lot easier said than done, since we
have a child and i'm financially strapped and have no money for a lawyer
(he can get one easily through his job) and i'm catholic and divorce is
not an option. if you're not quick to condemn me, i could really use
some words of advice. thanks.
:-) hopelessly devoted to mr. wrong
Dear Hopelessly Devoted,
Of course you're not surprised by your husband's philandering. He's been doing the same thing ever since you met him, and you've been letting him get away with it and even encouraging it. How? By staying with him and sleeping with him and loving him no matter what he does.
This doesn't sound like a salvageable situation. This is not some contrite hubby who's begging for forgiveness after straying one time. This turkey sounds like he's never going to change, at least not with you. Maybe five or six wives down the line, he'll run into someone who won't put up with his shenanigans, or maybe he'll die a sneak and a liar and a cheat, because that's what he's proven himself to be. And yet you tell me you love him anyway.
Then you confess you have low self-esteem. Well, that's why you put up with him. You think you're so lowly and unlovable that you have to accept a cheating man to get love. You're conditioned to believe that, and every time you let him walk all over you, you reinforce your own low self-esteem and make it lower. So then you bend over and say kick me, and he does. Oh my. This is a vicious cycle you're in. And to make matters worse, you say you're a Catholic and can't get divorced. Well, that's not necessarily so. Lots of Catholics manage to get out of bad marriages.
So listen to the jerk. He says he doesn't want to be married. He's promiscuous and could give you and your baby AIDS. And he's not ready for responsibility. So stop trying to force a round peg into a square hole. He's not going to change, at least not with you, because you've taught him that he can do whatever he wants and get away with it. Go see a legal aid attorney. You must stop feeling helpless and start taking care of yourself. Get into a women's support group at a nearby church or extension class. Look into assertion training. I highly recommend that you read Wayne Dyer's book "Pulling Your Own Strings." I'm sure you can find it at your local library.
I believe in trying to save marriages, but I'm afraid that the longer you stay with your husband the worse it'll get.
A "Dear John" Letter
Dear Dr. Tracy,
I have been involved with a recently divorced mother of three. She is
a co-worker, and we were friends before that. The relationship began
very casually, i.e. a cup of coffee after work, eating lunch together,
etc. It gradually (over three months) blossomed into a romance. Then,
needless to say, I fell in love with her. Hard.
Then something changed. Today I recieve this hand-delivered letter.
"I know there are somethings I need to tell you. You're not going to
like this very much, but I can't just keep you hanging on either. But
right now I can't be in a serious relationship with you. I would just
like to be your friend. After being in a fourteen year marriage I need
my freedom for a while without any tie-downs. Please understand this. I
never meant to hurt you at all. I don't need to make any mistakes that I
would regret later. "
Right now I am so confused. I know her marriage was less than ideal.
It was abusive, physically and emotionally. And I understand her
difficulties of being a single mother. God, I love this woman so much,
and I don't know what to do. I'm devastated,
My heart goes out to you, but I'm afraid you've forgotten the simple truth that just because you're in love doesn't mean the other person feels the same or shares your fantasies of what the relationship is.
I suspect that you gave too much too soon, that you didn't give the recently divorced mother room to breathe after her divorce, and that you unwittingly became the "interim man." (That's the guy who catches the woman "on the rebound," listens to all her problems and maybe has a little romance with her, but whose timing is just off because she's not ready.) My Love Library is full of warnings about all these relationship mistakes, so your situation can be an object lesson for others, but that doesn't help you now.
So what choice do you have here? You can agree to just be friends and go on about your life, or you can not agree. In which case you go on about your life without being friends. Since you work together, being friends would be best, but don't let the friendship get close again. That would be a big mistake.
The best thing you could do is stop moaning about this woman and find someone who's really ready for a romantic relationship. Then, after Ms. Newly Divorced has had some time to look around and see what's out there, she just might start thinking about you differently when she sees you've got a new girlfriend. After all, who wants to eat in a restaurant with no cars parked outside? So make yourself desirable by showing her that someone else looks at you in a romantic light. Don't be a doormat, the one she calls to bolster her ego when she's down or to fix the toilet or to repair her fence when it falls down.
She's right. After 14 years of marriage, she deserves a chance to be single and to find out who and what she really wants. Maybe it will turn out to be you in the long run. Maybe not. In the meantime, it does you no good to carry a torch for her. Get back to living your life. Date other women. Even if your heart's not in it, just go through the motions at first, and things will improve. Trust me.
Women -- Can't Figure Them Out
Dear Dr. Tracy,
I don't know if you use names on here so i'll just call my
self confused. I've never been able to figure out women. And i love and
admire them greatly. I would really like to know how i can tell if a woman
likes me and if not how i can get her to like me by acting different or
anything cause i'm not an ugly guy by no means just confused. I'm 33 male
native floridian tan 6'1 185 lbs black hair brown eyes and a nice car and
my own apartment.
I'm recently seperated from my wife that i been trying to
get back together with. We've known each other for about 13 years and lived
together for 5 years before we got married and have a 5 year old together. I
do wish i could figure out why she never seems interested in even talking
about sex even when we were married. I could never figure her out in that
way. Could you please give me some pointers on how i could go about getting
her to be interested in me sexually as well as a soul mate again?
this is very vague but i really need some help on how to talk to women and
approach them the right way. Well i hope you can help me Dr. Tracy Thanks
for trying to understand all this i know its not easy but anything you
could do would be a great help.
Thank you very much.......Confused
You're confused because you're trying to get water out of a dry spout. You've always wanted your ex-wife to be sexier, but she isn't. Well, guess what? Some women are sexy and some are not. If a woman is not a sexy woman, chances of her becoming one are almost nil.
There's no way she's going to change and suddenly desire you sexually after living with you and not wanting you for 13 years. If she's hot, she's hot, and if she's not she's not. I don't know why that's so hard for men to understand. Sexy women must have sex. They talk about it, they think about it, they do it. She's just not a sexy woman.
It's also obvious she doesn't want you. When a woman is attracted to you, you'll know because she'll want to be with you all the time.
What's really sad here is that you're a nice, attractive, tall, sexy guy who is trying to get a woman to love you who has no interest in you. What a waste! And as long as you're mooning over your ex, no intelligent woman would take a chance on getting involved with you, so you're defeating yourself in several ways here.
Make as clean a separation as you can from your ex. Stop looking to her to give you love and emotional fulfillment. Find a woman who shows obvious signs of wanting to be with you, and stop chasing one who doesn't want you anymore. It's easier to start fresh with a new relationship than to try to fix an old one that's as damaged as yours.
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